Perhaps I
should do this more often. Perhaps, only this
is what I should. Indulge in the play of words. Play with words. Perhaps have
meaningful conversations with myself. Perhaps, only look forward to socializing
with myself.
It is
amusing and annoying to watch myself be affected by you. You—whom I have known
only a bit, only for a while. Only a few
days now.
Is it a personal battle or a battle with you? But how can I have
battles with someone I have known only a bit; only now. You keep returning in
different shapes, forms, voices and in a variety of smiles. Why do you come from
outside and not from within?
Because when you
come from someplace else, you choose to stay or walk away. You leave me with no
choice but to let you go when you’d like to or keep you when you’d stay. You
make me sway to your tunes, make me go weak in my knees; you make me read things, read into things. In good ways and not-so-good ways. Whether I like it or
not.
You make me
look at him, admire him—whether I want to or not. Without
giving me time to think over it; decide whether I want to or not.
All this
when you come from somewhere else. It’s not like I do not appreciate your
presence. I like you lingering around me. I’d like you to make yourself at
home. Be with me. Stay with me. Be me. I
would want to become you. Provided you come from within. Don’t dictate terms.
Recite to me your poems instead. The
former happens when you try to conquer me and not drive me. Be my driving force
instead.
Don’t just
come home to me. Be my home. Become my home. Become my person.
Become my being.
Become my being.
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